Buh. I was ill over the weekend and don't even have lbs lost to show for it. BOOOO!

Last: 227

This week: 226

lbs lost 1 

That's about all I have energy for today!  

I dunnno why, but I'm SO GRUMPY today. I didn't start grumpy. I felt pretty darn good. But about 9 am I came down with a case of 'wtf do you want and get OUT of my LIFE' and I haven't been able to shake it. TOM just left, so it's not PMS. I just feel all downeydumps today. I really could just go somewhere and cry. I wish I could leave work right now but I just woudln't feel right leaving. I went to the restroom and had to have a chat with myself and tell me to buck up, it's 2 more hours, and then a trip to the gym. I can make it. I CAN.

I think I'll put on the headphones and some happy music and do some filing. Expend some energy. Something. I feel all pent up. 

Checking in for Healthy You Week 18!

Last week: 233.0

Today: 227.4

Lbs lost:  5.6

Yay! It was a really good and CHEAT FREE week! My week of course is not over till tomorrow, since I go Wed to Wed, but I'm not cheating today OR tomorrow, so I think I can call it good without sabotaging myself. 72 seems to be working just fine... I expected a drop of some water weight, and my TOM is on it's last days so I  am hoping to see some more drop before it slows down.

Since tomorrow starts week 2, I am supposed to add 5grams of carbs back in, and add what I "missed the most". Hmmm. Its either going to be cream cheese or cottage cheese. Probably cream cheese since so many lowcarb recipes call for it. It would expand my menu greatly. 

Tonight is another trip to the gym. I've learned a lesson since yesterday-- charge the iPod. Just charge it. Because I was right in the middle of an invigorating walk and watching a concert I'd downloaded to my iPod video when the battery fizzled out. BOOOOOOOOOO. I had to finish my walk pretending to be interested in SportsCenter. I'll be starting weight training today, probably lowerbody just because I like lower body better than upperbody, and abs. Looking forward to it.

I hope everyone on HYC had a good week and if not, they're ready to start a new week with a new committment. Let's GO!  

Does this happen to anyone else? The day before a weigh in, I get the urge to eat something I really have no business partaking of, at least for awhile. Healthy You check in is tomorrow and I am craving all sorts of things that would set me back a few lbs, even put me back over 230 which I don't think I could possibly bear. *shakes head @ self* That self sabotage is a biatch ain't it? So I have let my partner know that I'm not to screw around this evening. Eating good, eating early, going to the gym, going to have a nice relaxing GOOD night of sleep and have a great weigh in tomorrow.

Tomorrow I'm also going to start adding in weight training. I hate doing weights the day before I weigh in because of water retention. I figure if I stagger my upper and lower body workouts with cardio I still have enough days to recover before the next weigh in. 

Last night I made chicken packets for dinner. OMG. Easy and so good.

I just took 4 chicken thighs ( I knew I needed some for lunch and I hate rewarmed white meat) seasoned both sides, laid some slices of zucchini and squash on top, seasoned THEM, then a pat of I Can't Believe It's Not Butter , then wrapped each piece up in it's own little foil envelope. Cooked them at about 450 for an hour. OMG. Delish! I used too much salt though. Next time I am going to try Curry. I can taste it already!

Oy. I don't know WHAT is up with my neighbors but they have the most tumultious relationship. They don't seem to do anything at a decent hour. It's always between 4 and 6 am that they're either fighting or having loud 'banging-on-the-wall' sex. This morning was no different. At 5 am it was a cursing, slamming of doors, scream fest for about an hour. I thought about calling the police but I dont want to be 'that neighbor'. Not really. 

So I stayed up till about 10 am, then fell asleep till 1. Now it's 4 and I've had lunch and I'm sleepy again. If I sleep more, I am afraid that I will be up all night and that makes for a horrible Monday.

 I did not make plans to go to the gym today. I thought I might do my firm tape later on. I really need to clean but the bed is so comfy. *sigh* I suppose I'll get up in a bit and get moving.

 I awoke just before 7 am today, ready to begin my day. I planned to go the gym, and I had a brunch to attend at 11:30.  I had a slice of quiche and some water around 7:45, headed to the gym.

I worked out, came home, showered and dressed and by the time I was ready to order brunch was SO HUNGRY! Like growling and everything. I finished eating about 1 or so, sat and talked till nearly 2, then drove home. Hit home about 3ish... and I'm starving!

Generally, my life revolves around food. I'm always wondering what my next meal is, planning my next meal, or I've just eaten a meal. I love food and I live to eat. Eating to live is not a concept I can grasp. I like to eat-- I just try to make good choices that I can enjoy. Sometimes when I think I am hungry, I'm really just bored. Or thirsty.

So I'm sitting here trying to determine if I'm really hungry, or if I'm just bored. It could be both. How do ya tell???  

I MUST give big ups to my friend tru2me over at Healthy Journey. She is about 20 lbs down now and is looking FANTASTIC! I saw her at brunch and I'm even more inspired to stay on plan and get back down to and beyond my low. Congrats, ma! You're doin' the dang thing this year!

I guess I'll be getting a AAA membership. I was so proud of myself for locking the car, because I had my laptop in it and I didn't want it to disappear. WHY, oh WHY didn't I just lock it in the trunk like usual? NOOOOOOO. I had to lock all 4 doors, which I NEVER do, because, as was witnessed today, I locked my keys in the car. Only the first time this year... hey I made it all the way to May before I did something stupid related to the car!

So I had to call a locksmith, I just called the first one that came up. $115 later and I am now home. The dude worked for all of 5 seconds, and when I protested the bill, he said '10 minute service, your husband can't even be here in 10 minutes!' I wanted to tell him 'listen f**ktard, I don't HAVE a husband and if I DID, I'd have called HIM to call YOU'. *shakes fist at idiots who make assumptions.

So then I came home, actually turned AWAY from McDonald's, where I really wanted to stop and alleviate some stress with some french fries. Didn't. I was going to stop at Moe's for a diet pepsi, didn't. Went home. Made some broiled chicken wings and some lemon lime juice thing..... washed, deep conditioned, and did a hot oil treatment on my hair and then I did a pony tail rollerset. Now I'm under the dryer and channel surfing.

My days are full of such interesting minutae.  

I love Fridays. Even though I have to work, Fridays seem like an all day party to me.   There's something about knowing I can stay up late, and I don't necessarily have to get up early the next day, and then i can stay up late the NEXT night, too!

 Things are going ok right now. On the weightloss front, I am back under 230. It feels good to have some control, to be active again, to get back to living. I told my friend Miss Size 2 that I feel like I've been living in a fog these past few months. I thought I was fine but I certainly wasn't. I'm now trying to look forward to summer and having a good, fun, relaxing time.

Has anyone made any summer plans???  I think I definitely want to go back to Hilton Head sometime this year.

Today is the day! My friend KF (and anyone else who wants to join along) are spending May keeping close tabs on each other. We both get to that f*ck it point and give up and go thru somebody's drive thru. Not this month. As previously mentioned, May is about success. So we're forming an alliance and we have a plan called 'Stay on Plan or I swear to gawdt I will kick your ASS'. I think it has a nice ring to it. KF says it has a goal with a touch of violence. That turns us on.

So the house is stocked with safe foods to eat and I already made a delish quiche, which I had for dinner last night, and breakfast this morning. For snacks I brought some hb eggs and some string cheese but... Im not really much of a snacker. They're here if I need them though. I'll be going home for lunch and either finishing off the salmon salad or making tuna salad. Likely finishing. And having a small green salad as recommended by Dr Atkins.

The plan I've chosen is the 1972 version of the Atkins Diet. I chose this mostly because it's what my body responds to, and because it allows me to cut sugar, starch, white flour but still feel satisfied. As a borderline diabetic, this seems to be the plan that helps me feel the best- not cloudy, not 'about to pass out'.

I've already dropped a few lbs, as I expected. I usually drop some water first. My first goal is to get back to my 1/1/08 goal of 215. And then on to 199 by the end of summer, i hope. By the end of May I'm hoping to be down to 220 or better.